New Beginnings Are Hard

Written by April Vargo


This morning I did a 30 minute yoga workout, for the first time since before giving birth.  Maizy is now a little over 10 weeks old, and I've been working hard to get back in shape.  I've been going on many walks when the weather permits, running around my house to get chores and laundry done, and constantly lifting and setting her down. 

I thought today's workout would be fairly easy as I've been pretty active.  Well let me tell you, it was quite the challenge.  I realized that I had lost a great deal of endurance and strength.  Poses that used to be fairly easy I'm having to think about and really focus on.  The level I was at before is essentially gone.  I realized I'm going to have to start back at the beginning and work my way up through the ranks. 

My Grandma used to always tell me, "new beginnings are hard."  I'm starting to see this in a different light.  Life is constantly changing and evolving.  When change is about to occur, a struggle is present.  In order for change to happen you have to overcome some sort of obstacle. 

This morning's struggle was just another way I've been humbled.  I feel like motherhood in general has been a completely humbling experience, one that has kept me constantly learning about myself and my new life.  

Getting to places on time:

I'm used to living by a schedule, being organized and prompt.  Recently I can't seem to get to anything on time.  I'm ready to run out the door and all of a sudden Maizy is hungry, fussy, or we need a diaper change.  I find myself completely rushing when just moments before I thought I was all organized and ready to go with plenty of time to spare.  My whole schedule is out the door, and I've pretty much had to just learn how to go with the flow.  There's no point in being upset or frazzled.  You plan the best you can and then respond to events as they arise.  

Marriage and an evolving relationship:

My husband and I have always had a great relationship, but have recently had to readjust and almost relearn ourselves again.  With me taking care of the baby and him working many hours, there doesn't leave a whole lot of time for family time and just us time.  There have definitely been some stressful moments that have tested both of us.  We talked about how we have to reprioritize where our time is spent.  When not working our goal is to spend as much time together as a family as possible.  Other small items that don't really matter need to take a backseat. 

Work Life Balance:

I read a comment the other day by Barbara Corcoran about work-life balance, and that this doesn't really exist.  Life is instead a series of chunks, and when you're in that chunk of time you hyper focus on whatever it is you're doing so you get the most out of your time and the experience you're having.  I loved this sentiment because I think she's totally on point.  There is no way to truly have a balance, nothing is ever 50/50.  Sometimes things come up and you find your balance is 90/10 or 60/40, so on and so forth.  The goal is not to try and create a perfect balance but instead to focus on the task and time at hand. 

When you're working you're only focused on that, but when you're with your family work gets put away, the phone is down, and all of your attention is on the people in front of you. 

My Work:

I will be starting my classes up in a little under two weeks.  Honestly, I can't even believe how fast time has flown!  We have been able to work out a schedule where my husband watches Maizy when I work and I am with her when he is working.  This way we both get to spend time with her and form a bond.  The time we spend, we don't have to watch the clock or run appointments.  We get to be completely present.  As she grows up, hopefully she'll get to look back at these moments with fond memories....two parents who were always there for her, and made her a priority in their lives. 

As I think back to the last few months I'm blown away by the new beginnings we've had and the obstacles we've overcome.  I have so much faith in our family and the close unit we are creating.  Sometimes a beginning might be brand new, other times it may be something we've been doing that we have to start over again.  Either way it's going to be an adjustment and a challenge.  With the right mindset and drive to succeed anything is possible.  

What new beginnings are you facing or struggling with?  

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